Monday, May 21, 2012

The Engagement



I believe that all things brought to one's life, to give it profound meaning, is all done divinely by accident.  The places we choose to visit, the decisions we make and the people we encounter; are all moments intricately placed within our lives on purpose.  Everything is done, at the exact moment it is done, for a reason.  You are meant to go there, to do something and to have particular individuals cross your path.  This theory made itself known in my life (yet again) just last week.

On May 5, 2012, two individuals indirectly entered my life, to remind me of something I had forgotten for some time.  Through their own experience, they gave me back something profound.  The amazing part of it all is that they have no idea how one special moment in their lives rekindled something that was lost in mine for so long.  So today, I would like to dedicate this blog to them.

May 5, 2012, was a day like any other for most of us.  Yet, for Christopher Di Tomaso, today was special.  It was a day that he had been planning for some time.  This was the day that he would ask his beloved lady, Allison Gillies, to be his wife. 

As family and friends waited in anticipation, for the day's events to unfold, Allison had no idea what magical journey lay ahead. 

That evening, Allison got ready for a night out with some friends, to watch a movie.  Ironically, they had made plans to watch "The 5 Year Engagement", which was showing at "The 5 Drive In" where 5 years ago the happy couple had their very first date.  Coincidence?  Well, that may have been what Allison would have said, prior to this evening.  However, there was nothing coincidental about any of this day's events.  It was all carefully orchestrated by one man, the love of her life-Christopher.

Here is how it all unfolded: 





The first time I saw this, it sent shivers down my spine.  It truly is the most beautiful profession of love that I have ever seen in my life.  I felt butterflies for the first time in ages.  In my own life, countless heartbreak has made me forget about loving anyone.  Only I hadn't realized it until this moment.  I've been walking around aimlessly, just living my "day to day life" without love.  At some point, I had denounced the existence of love within my life.  I had lost all faith that real love was out there.  I had convinced myself that love was only for the lucky and the strong - and I am neither of those things any longer.  I have forgotten about even wanting to love anyone.  How sad is that?  What's worse is that i know that I am not alone in this reasoning that I have made about love. So, I felt that it was my duty to share this with the world, in hopes that it will "awaken" the spirit of love within us all. 



Chris and Allison, thank you so much for lifting the heavy/dark weight that had made a home upon my heart for far too long.   It was this beautiful depiction of your love for one another, that made me believe in love again.  Not just any kind of love either.  But real/crazy/amazing kind of love.  Complete love, where the experience makes you truly alive.  Where every sense is heightened and every emotion magnified.  You have changed my life and I wanted you both to know that.  Watching the two of you has rekindled what I have always both believed and known:  That love is possible.  I knew that once and now I know it again because of you.  From the bottom of my heart, thank you!

In honor of that love, I have written a little something for you both.

"We have come here today in celebration of your promise to one another. A promise that you have pledged within your hearts. One of admiration, respect and love. A vow that one day soon shall be witnessed by God above. A love that in times, may be tried and tested will never be broken, because your love will always be evident and seen. Even when words are left unspoken. For God has blessed you both with a keeper for your heart. One that will love, honor and always know your worth, even when apart. Where once two hearts, two souls and two journeys dwelled apart, are now infinitely bound by a ring. Symbolizing no beginning and no end for the love that lives within your hearts. "




Congratulations to you both! May you always have more love, more passion, more laughter and more happiness together than you could ever know what to do with.
~ Always ~
Gia










Sunday, May 13, 2012

A Daughter's Love - Happy Mother's Day




It never ceases to amaze me just how deeply I fall in "Awe" and in "Love" with my Mother each and every day.  It's magical really.  She is the deepest part of all that I am.  Her essence creates me...moulds me into greatness, every day of my life.

Funny.. when I look back at my "younger years" I often laugh at my behaviour toward her.  Continuously the devilish little girl, always getting into mischief and trying so hard to be rebellious.  I fought with all my might to get away from the ideals she taught, because I was so afraid of loosing myself in her.  Scared that I wouldn't find my own way in this world if I was following hers.   Nowadays, I pray that I can become a fraction of the woman she is.  Ironic how life plays out.

We are so much alike and I didn't even realize it.  Our voices, our kindness, our love for everything/everyone around us.  The softness and care that we take in all that we do.  It's remarkable.  Remarkable because for the longest time I didn't believe that I was anything like her.  Yet, more and more each day, others around me say just how much alike we really are - and I take so much pride in that. 

Mommy...

You once heard my heartbeat within you and because of that, I now forever hear yours within me.
I sometimes joke with you about how demure, lady like and humble you are - but the truth is those are qualities I adore most about you.  I may be fiery and vocal but the heart of me is soft and shy, just like you.

I would never change a single thing about you, because all of it makes up the extraordinary woman and mother that you have always been to me.  Even in times when I didn't care to see it or deserve who you were. 

You always shake your head at me when I tell you that I don't care what anyone thinks of me.  I have always lived by my terms and in my own way and I am so grateful and blessed that I had a Mother who had the courage and the strength to let me become my own woman -even when it frightened you to let me live.  Always know that I hear all you say and cherish your words. 

You've always been protective of me in such a strong way, and I guess for a long time I took that negatively.  As you not trusting my judgements - like I wasn't capable of making my own way in this world all by myself.  Now I know different.  Now I think differently.  A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the entire world.  It knows no law nor pity.  It dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.  You have always loved me that way. 

I'm sorry for all the tears you watched me cry.  All the sarcasm and "Miss now at all" remarks.  For all the different pitches and tones in my voice that ever made you feel small, silly or insignificant.  For all the explanations you felt were necessary to make in my defense or honor.  All the wars that you had to fight on my behalf.  I know a mother's love is unconditional, but you didn't deserve all the wars you had to battle for me.  And yet, you never once complained or made excuses for who I was.  You worried in silence but to the rest of the world you always had this "Yes, that's my daughter" attitude and proud of the fact that in all aspects of my life, I CHOSE to be a Sheppard than a sheep.

You've always called me a dreamer girl and that is why God takes me on the "scenic route" of life.  For only a dreamer could ever truly appreciate all the beauty and splendor of this world.  That sometimes, although the road less travelled by is rarely taken and most painful it's truly the ONLY road anyone should take.  My roads have made you worrisome at times, even tearful, but always know that I'm OK and have your love to guide me through.

I have always believed with all my heart and soul that we choose who are parents will be from Heaven, before we get here.  I still do.  I know at times I should feel sad/remorseful that other little girls didn't have the opportunity to have you as a Mother, but I don't because  I wanted you all for myself and would do it all again if I had the chance.

Daddy may be the keeper of my heart but only you, dear Mother, will ever be the essence of my soul.

I love you beyond all reason and measure

Forever mine...Forever blessed...

Happy Mother's Day!




Thursday, May 3, 2012

OVER AND OVER ....AGAIN




I LOVE WATCHING YOU


THINKING TO MYSELF

OVER AND OVER AGAIN

LIKE A SONG ON REPEAT

HOW I WANT YOU



IMAGINING THE MOVEMENTS

WHEN YOU COME FOR ME

OVER AND OVER AGAIN

JUST THE THOUGHT OF YOU

BEAUTIFUL RELEASES INSIDE ME



HOVERING OVER ME

I CAN’T HELP IT

LIKE A MELODY ON REPEAT

YOU SURROUND MY BODY

FILLING ME WITH SUCH HEAT



OVER AND OVER AGAIN

LOVE FEELING YOUR HARMONY

I WANT YOU SO MUCH

I FEEL COMPELLED TO YOUR TOUCH

OVER AND OVER AGAIN



Music Lyrics
Written/Created By:  Gia
LIFE AFX

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

MUSIC IS



Music is my Rhythm and my soul.  Words & Music make me whole...

Music is my expression when I cannot speak

It keeps my heart pumping with every beat

Grabs my body, ignites my soul

I love it most when I lose control


Music is life so let me live

Excitement and energy that’s so addictive

I love it most cuz it sets me free

Consumed by the rhythm is how I wanna be



House Music Lyrics
Written/Created By: Gia
LIFE AFX