Monday, December 30, 2013



Hi Everyone:
Being that this is "New Year's Eve-Eve", I wanted to tap into a subject that I truly believe needs to be addressed. Keep in mind that what I am about to say may and will offend some individuals, but sometimes some feathers need to be ruffled for the greater good. I hope that all those who read this truly take the words for what they're worth and know that it comes from a place of love.

When it comes to New Year’s resolutions, it is no surprise that “get in shape” or “lose weight” rank in the top five. Our society is increasingly obsessed with appearance and the illusion of perfection. It is entirely too easy to get sucked into the latest diet craze and because of this fact it has made eating addiction and disorders racked in the top 5 elements of what can end an individuals like prematurely.

6 months ago, I came out to the world about my battle with eating disorders. It's a disease and illness like no other, I assure you. It spirals your world so out of control that it leaves you little hope for ever getting it back. This New Year's if one of your resolutions is about weight loss, I am begging you to stop and think about the type of journey you're about to embark upon.

DO NOT believe in the insanity of what's out there for weight loss. If your goal is to become more healthy then don't jeopardize it by getting caught up with silly products, programs or organizations that falsely promise you insane progress in an unheard of amount of time. Trust me, it's NOT in your body's best interest. RAPID WEIGHTLOSS IS NEVER HEALTHY - PERIOD!! What they promise you will achieve is NEVER without cost. And I'm not just talking about hitting your wallet. I'm referring to your health. Popping certain "supplements" and shakes over a certain period of time will get you to loose A LOT of weight quickly but did you know that it could also take a real toll on your heart, kidneys and your liver? Of course not, they tend to leave that kind of stuff out of their sales pitch. It's bad business to discuss the real nature of body chemistry and how it is forever altered when you engage in these types of deprivation diets.

Look, weight loss is a simple science. Keep your body active, hydrated and well nourished with the proper foods and you will undoubtedly reach your goal. It's a balance of mind, body and sprit. If you've tried this approach time and time again with little or no result then spend your time, energy and money researching and interviewing a nutritionist, therapist or naturopath professional that can give you the PROPER guidance. I don't know about you, but I am not about to leave my body's well-being in the hands of just anyone. That's insanity.

So please, spend your time wisely and do your body good. Invest in some meditation, yoga or nutritional cooking classes rather than ridiculously priced programs that will kill you in the end. Remember, what you lose quickly will unmistakably come back even faster. In the end, the scale may still come back to read the same number that you originally started with - but you will have gained back even more fat than you originally started with. This is a known fact! Your organs become more and more weak, every time you start one of these stupid diets. You lose an insane amount of weight in mere weeks and then gain it all back when you return to eating normally.

Sunday, October 13, 2013


I’ve been reading so many different posts about what people are thankful for, on this Thanksgiving Day weekend.  So many warm and heart-filled thoughts – It’s beautiful really.  Nevertheless, I want you all to keep in mind that it’s not about what you’re thankful for receiving (that’s gratitude) but how you use what you’ve received  to give/make others around you happy, fulfilled, loved and appreciated.  Not just those you know but, especially those you don’t. 

So in this moment, I am thankful for my nature of being, because with it I am able to be there for people who need me – in every way.  I am thankful for my talents because they have brought joy, smiles, laughter and peace to many.  I am thankful for my body that even in the darkest times of mistreatment it has stood idly by – strong, resilient and proud each day.  I am thankful for my heart because no matter how much it’s been torn and weathered with the trials/tribulations of life it remains big and full of love.  I am thankful for my mind because it is always open, never judgemental and continuously tries to think of ways to help mankind.  I am thankful for my eyes and ears because they neither see nor hear evil, in any way.   
With all that said I am so grateful for my abundant life – filled with the most important riches that surely no money can buy.  To all my fans, friends, family and strangers that have entered my life in some way:  You are the sole reason that I exist.  After all, at the end of anyone’s life, it’s not about how much you had that will measure you but rather how you made everyone who ever knew you feel that will be remembered.  And I truly hope that I have added to your lives in some very small way because you my dear loved ones:  You are everything to me and I am truly humbled/blessed and thankful that you allow me the privilege of walking alongside you each day.


Friday, September 27, 2013


The last few days it feels as though, I've been hanging on by a moment. Only those who truly know me can attest to this.

You know, it's funny. Life can really try your spirit, until you truly feel like you have nothing left of yourself to give.  There are moments.. events that occur where you can literally feel the life being sucked out from the inner most part of you.  You are utterly broken; falling into a blackness and no matter how hard you fight, you cannot stop yourself from reaching the bottom.  Then, in a moment of complete darkness there is a calm in a moment silence.   Then, you hear something.  The loudest voice from a place unknown. What it tells you in that moment could be your only salvation IF you choose to listen.

Tonight, that voice told me to search for meaning.  To search for inspiration.  That if I truly looked for it, I’d find an answer easily.  It seemed incredibly preposterous, but I was so defeated within my own mind that even the most impossible of things would have seemed possible to me.

(Another peculiar thing about the human psyche.  It takes a human being to be at their lowest point to truly become humble enough to see/hear God’s favor.  At that point, all you have left is your faith.  My deepest sympathies to those of you who have no faith in anything.  In which case the darkness could be ever-lasting )

I found myself on YouTube and that is where I met, Zach Sobiech.   He was waiting for me, to tell me a story.  His story. 

After my life was introduced to his (for a brief, beautiful moment in time) I began to cry so uncontrollably. It was then that I heard the voice (from within) again. It said:

"An illness can only consume your body and sadly you may not be able to have any control over that but, what you do have control over is not allowing the illness to consume your spirit. It and your heart are yours eternally.”

Something I've always known but never really wanted to understand until tonight; after meeting this man.

I truly believe with all my heart that somehow he was sent to me, in my moment of darkness, to give me some peace and show me some light.  Not just any light, but my light.  I’m not saying that everything will be easier now, but it’s given me some true divine insight. 

Z A C H  S O B I E C H

I knew absolutely nothing about you (or your life story) before this night.  But, thank you for finding me somehow just the same.  Now, I will never forget you and whenever the darkness of my illness comes to visit (as it always does) you will now be the light that shines through – bringing promise and life to my silence.

May God always bless and keep you (his Angel) in his light.  May your family, friends and all of us who have come to be touched by your life always feel your warmth… however “UP UP UP in the clouds” you are

 I think it’s time all of you met him too …

Friday, September 13, 2013


Can you see candles from Heaven
Is what I've often wondered.
The roar of burning flames
Ignited by love, longing and pain
So powerful, like thunder
Here for barley 20 years
Gone now for 20 more
And each time I think of you
I can still feel your warmth to my very core
I never wanted a world without you,
But God said it was to be.
So now, I'm left here alone,
Lighting candles so you'll remember me.
There are times when life grants me peace
And I think of you a little less.
But it's only for a day or two
Until my heart pronounces your name again
And my mind is once more a mess.
Flooded with beautiful memories of when my life was yours
To a time when I was truly happy
And every day brought something special
Something new.
So I will continue to light candles for you to see from Heaven.
In hopes that you remember the girl you left behind so long ago
And know that with every glowing light
You see how much she still loves you so...
****I love you Nael (Nick) Ayoub... forever!
You were taken from my world, 21 years ago today...and I have missed you with all my heart since.
My one and truest love..
I hate this day so much.... so, so much!!! ****

Monday, September 2, 2013


In light of my last few "Dating 101" articles, posted on my website, many of you wrote in asking:

"If a guy wanted to date me, what would he have to know?"

I think this list could easily be "forever growing".  I find that as you grow up, the things that you thought may have been important in the past can easily mean little or nothing today.

I used to think that I wanted someone who was exactly like me.  Someone who liked all the same things as I did - so we'd have much in common.  Truth be told, I don't really feel like that anymore.  If similarities are there, great.  Otherwise, I think it would be much more fun to find someone who is somewhat different than who I am.  Exploring their dreams and likes could be fun and who knows, I may find something else that I love too - and didn't know it!

I want to know that someone is looking out for me.  That they can be my strength. I'm used to being a man's "Florence Nightingale" Giving them purpose and all the answers to their lives, but no one's ever stopped to give back.  That's been something that has always made me sad.  I'd like to have a man who brings to my life without asking, for a change.  Sounds simple enough, right? 

I don't want to be with someone that I feel like I am constantly trying to fight for their attention.  But rather, I want someone who will know that I deserve the best man they can be for me, simply because I should be shown nothing less than everything.

I really want an old fashioned kind of love.  Meaning, something more than just jumping into bed whenever time and lustful thoughts permit.  I want a man who tries so hard to kiss my hand and hold it up to his heart.  Cherishing moments of just sitting across from one another and not being able to stop smiling at one another. 

Longing for the day to be looked at by a man like he just saw every purpose of his life, flash before his very eyes in mine.  Like everything just clicked and now makes sense.  As if every other moment had to end, so ours could begin.

I know.. I know... I dream to much!  But it's what I want, so who is anyone to say that it can't happen, huh?  After all, am I not the author of the book about my life?

Wednesday, August 28, 2013



On this day, 27 years ago, I lost the woman who gave "life" to the girl you all know as "GIA". My second Mom: My Grandmother - Ernestina. However sad and in pain I am whenever this day comes around each year, I also know that I've been divinely favoured in this life. Not only did I have a Mom who gave birth to me and whom is still in my life, every moment of every day, but I had my Grandmother... who would stand for nothing less than making sure that everyone around me knew how full of gifts, talents and greatness I was - every day that she was alive.

I felt utterly invincible. Like I could do or be anything, no matter what the odds. She enriched my life in every way. She made me learn languages and religions because she said they were the root of loving others. She encouraged me to sing to her (and anyone that crossed our path) because she thought I had the voice of a Goddess. She tricked me into finding out that I had a passion for song-writing / words when I was only 8. Why? Because I told her that I was bored of singing all the songs she taught me and the ones on the radio. Her reply: "Oh, you are, are you? Well then, write me a song of your own. Then, when you're done, you can sing it because it's new." She was a smart cookie, that Grandmother of mine. But, after trying it, I loved it and she knew that I would. How she was able to know what I would come to love was always a mystery to me - but she did.

Toward the end of her life she always quoted things to me that I should carry with me in my life. Things I should never let go of. Things that some days I'm ashamed to say that I have. It's not always easy to believe in yourself. Especially, when the person who always had is gone. But I know she's still with me and will always be. She brings me faith, strength and love from the afterlife. My friends tell me repeatedly that they admire my determination and passion for things - It comes from her love. It comes from her life, touching mine.

I still sing for her some nights by candlelight and I always will. I still write because she made me love it so much. I still have faith in God, religion and in myself.  Why? Because she did and she didn't just believe in anything.

I leave this post with something that she said all the time:

"You will not always be able to see me but trust and know that I will NEVER leave you. You were truly one of my special and most proudest joys and loving you was a gift that I will thank God for eternally. No matter what follow and remember what I've taught you about your talents. Make them your dreams. Its hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but its harder to give up when you know its everything you want. Finally, remember that there are 3 things you cannot recover in life: The WORD after it’s said, the MOMENT after it’s missed and the TIME after it’s gone. Be Careful!”

R.I.P. Nonna Ernestina .... You are always on my mind; and forever in my heart! I long for the day to see you again. I just hope I'm still the same girl you were so proud of once, because I try so hard to be... (tears)

Friday, July 26, 2013


If you want a perfect girl..

One year ago today, I was diagnosed with having a severe eating addiction, that had manifested itself into an outburst of eating disorders. I was categorized as a “Binge Bulimic” I’ve been living with this illness for a year now and can honestly say that it has taken away my life and health in every way. My life as I once knew it became non-existent almost overnight. Although the road had become incredibly dark and grim, I believe that I can actually begin to see a small gleam of light in this suffocating tunnel.

To say that admitting this to all of you today is frightening would be the understatement of the century. It goes far beyond the depths of any nightmare. Hiding this thing that I’ve been going through has been almost as exhausting as dealing with the illness/disorder itself. I’ve become great at masking and hiding myself away from the world. But then, the life of any addict is just so, isn’t it? You become an expert at masking away your pain from the world and internalizing it as you go along.

For a year now, I’ve asked myself through tears each day “why me?” Why was I chosen for this journey. Most days my body tells my mind that I am not strong enough to get through this. Nevertheless, my heart and spirit are the reasons for my tiny victories, thus far. “One day at a time” is what I hear around me. But, it’s hard to live that way when you have so many dreams and desires to fulfill. Nevertheless, my disorder has brought my life to a standstill and has forced me to do just that. Taking things very slowly, day by day, is all that I can handle for the moment.

Why am I choosing to come out with this now? Is a question I have asked myself a thousand times as I write this. The answer is simply: “I don’t know!” Perhaps I’m tired of living in the shadows of it all. Maybe it’s because I’m mentally, physically and emotionally drained from trying to pretend that nothing is wrong. Or it could be because I’m learning to accept the things I cannot change and showing courage and desire to change. It is for all of these reasons and so many more. Mainly, it’s because I pray that someone that is going through a similar cycle will read this and be able to change her fate, before it becomes similar to mine. That would truly be a great honour.

I have learned many, many lessons during this phase of my life. Ones that I don’t believe I could have learned if this disorder was not a part of me. Therefore, I can say that I embrace and accept all that is happening within me and ask for God’s guidance in giving me peace and strength to overcome all that I must, in order to come back to the true essence of who I was. The person that he created me to be.

I am also fortunate enough (as one writer put it) “to realize that my judgment about my body is the cultural lie, social conditioning left over from being raised in a society that taught me that there is a boiler plate standard for what it means to be “good enough” as a woman in this world. I also realized that the deepest part of me absolutely knows that this is a pile of B.S.”

The lesson that I am trying to take away from all this is “trying to be ‘perfect’ at love, be it self-love or body-love, is as unrealistic and as stressful as trying to be ‘perfect’ in our bodies themselves. I choose to ignore the thoughts that I know aren’t kind, and align with the thoughts that are kind and quite frankly, feel better. That is my daily commitment. And the biggest lesson of all is that that is enough.”

Thank- you all for listening. For this tale was not an easy one to tell.

But, it’s time to move on from this dark place back into the light – and try to gain my life back in every way.

***If you or anyone you know is suffereing from an eating disorder - or believe that you know someone may be developing one please contact your local crisis centre today.***

Friday, July 19, 2013

The Circle

How can it be?

How can it be that I’m dreaming of you?
When yesterday you were but a warm, distant memory of a time long ago.

Why does my soul find yours so familiar?
When it hasn’t ever dwelled within it.
And yet, now that I know your heartbeat, mine can no longer beat in sync without it.

Quietly, in the dark, I can feel my body speaking to yours.
When the mere thought of you whispering my name
Sends chills down my spine, driving me insane.

Thinking of all the words we’ve spoken
They stir like a million tiny butterflies inside of me.
Waiting for the day when you’re touch sets them free.

I feel like I’m falling, but how could that be?
All these thoughts, feelings and cravings for you that have snuck up on me
At times it’s scary how love can move so quickly

However surprised this new moment with you has made me
I hope to be pleasantly shocked every day.
For this is the special moment in time where a connection is born,
A feeling like no other
That no one can ever replace or take away

So tonight, when the whole world is sleeping
Know that I am still awake, dreaming..
Impatiently waiting for another sunrise
When another day means seeing the same excitement in your eyes…

Monday, July 15, 2013


All this time past,
So much time wasted
Trying to create a life that would mean something
To someone
When the only person I should have always been living for…was me!
All the things I’ve said and done, simply to be seen
To blend in and just be like everyone else.
All this time thinking that I had to be like someone else to matter.
A little voice cried out in the middle of complete darkness
... With the roar of a Lioness
Pleading and begging to be heard
You were not born to be like everyone else. So, why are you wasting time trying to fit in
When you were born to STAND OUT???

It’s incredible how loud silence can be, when you listen…

Sunday, June 16, 2013



From the start, you loved me first.
And no matter what, you always loved me at my best & worst.
You'll do anything for me and go to great lengths to always protect me.
And even now at 39, I am forever your little girl,
The one you treasured more than any diamond or pearl.
You've shown me the very best things in this life, and taught me the same.
The most prized things of all: How love and how to call my dreams by name.
Which reminds me, how did you ever know all of them before they came?
You've always been the strength by my side, with a strong hand as my guide.
You'd give me the world on a platter if you could, but dearest Daddy don't you see? You already have. You've taught me to be the woman I am and always been exactly how a father to a daughter should. Her Knight in shining armour, the Slayer of all monsters, the biggest fan, the fulfiller of dreams and the sweetest Angel God ever made and allowed to walk the earth, so that this little girl could believe.

**** I love u ***

Wednesday, May 22, 2013


Dear Body,

I cannot remember the last time that I did anything for you whole-heartedly.

I’ve done nothing but mistreat you and abuse you in every way, for decades. I’m not only sorry but truly and utterly ashamed of how I’ve treated you all this time. I’ve disrespected you in every way and allowed others to do the same. I’ve ridiculed and blamed you for not allowing me to reach my goal, potential or status. As if it was your fault that I did not fuel you properly, so that you could perform at your best. All I’ve done is neglect you in every way. Feeding you the wrong foods, keeping you inactive and not loving you.

In return, you have done nothing but allowed me the chance to move and carry on every day. No matter how sick you’ve been or how tired I’ve made you. You have not failed me. You allow my heart to beat each day and give me room to breathe. Anyone/Anything else would have abandoned me a long time ago but you, you stay. You believe in me when I don’t. You care for me when my spirit cannot. Somehow you know that my will is strong and that someday…someday I will raise you up. Somehow you know that together we can do anything.

I’m deeply sorry that it’s taken me so long to come around and feel the damage that I’ve been single-handedly manifesting upon you all these years. I’m disgusted at my behaviour and ask, no beg you, for your forgiveness.

I want to thank you for being so kind, so loving and so very patient with me. For taking it slow and allowing me to understand and truly hear what it is you really need from me. For understanding that this journey of ours is my most difficult one. Thank you most for always reaching out to me, whenever I fall off the wagon and succumb to my old ways. Your love and support is always unconditional and I know it doesn’t have to be so. I have seen many bodies give up on others and am beyond grateful that you see something in me, in us, to carry on and stay right by my side – every step of the way. Lord knows I don’t deserve you, but I’m glad he believes I’m worth it.

I don’t have all the answers. I am not always strong. There will be days when the addict in me will surface and reign true, allowing my spirit to fall. These are what I call “the empty days”, when I feel helpless, worthless and cannot find meaning in anything. But, it’s during those days that I will need you to love me most. It is then that I will need you to work with my mind and spirit to help me back up, so that I can deliver myself from all the unnecessary evils. I’m not saying that I will never fail you again because I will. I’m human after all and must allow for such things. If I don’t, I will only cause myself more destruction and disillusion, and I think I’ve done enough of that already. All I beg of you is patience. That you continue to work with me and keep strong.

I promise that better days are ahead and someday, I will make you shine again. This, I vow.

To all women everywhere:

It’s time that we stop abusing our bodies and self-worth before it’s too late. We need to put an end to the “society talk” and status quos and truly see what we are really doing to our bodies because of it.

I had to learn the hard way and today, I live and fight with 2 eating disorders. It’s been the hardest struggle of my life to date. One that I pray to overcome. I wasn’t strong enough to understand that nothing/no one could ever love my body better than I could. That society should never dictate what anyone’s worth is. But, I didn’t and because of it, I live with the consequences of my decisions every day.

Today, I thankfully have an incredible team of people behind me and I am on the road to recovery.  *** To my medical team of professionals, my Therapists, Group clinic team, my family and friends:  Thank-you so much for working so hard every day to show me the way.  I would not be alive today if it wasn't for all your "tough love", strength and support.  I love you all. ****

It has taken me a year to come to terms with all the emotions and fear that this illness has brought. Afraid of admitting all that I am going through for fear that no one would understand. Afraid of being ridiculed and judged. But it’s time. I’m realizing that by hiding I’m missing out on helping others going through the same thing.

If you or anyone you know/love is suffering from an eating disorder or eating addiction, there is help out there. All you have to do is ask. Don’t be afraid or pretend it’s not happening, like I did. Don’t wait until it’s too late to love yourself. Trust me, there is no greater glory than “self-love” and no greater fulfillment than being healthy…. at any weight!

I invite you all to join me in the pledge to our bodies below:

Much love & respect:  Gia

Today I pledge to love my body.

I pledge to refrain from saying derogatory things about my weight, shape, or appearance. If I talk about my body, it will be to tell the world how absolutely fabulous it is.

I pledge to hold others accountable to respecting my body in all its shapely glory. I will not allow others to create the definitions of what is right for my body. I will make those decisions and stand firm by them.

I pledge to honour the signals that my body sends me. I will sleep when I’m tired, eat when I’m hungry, and drink when I’m thirsty. I will play when my body needs movement and slow down when it needs rest. I will listen closely.

I pledge to treat my body well, just for being amazing. I will do things that give my body pleasure in all forms, as long as those things don’t hurt me.

I pledge to stand up for the right of all bodies to be treated with respect. I will defend others whom I hear bullied and will take action when society tries to tell us what the “right” body is.

I pledge to move my body in ways that give me joy and energy. I will bend and twist and stretch and jump, but I will not devote hours of my life to activity that brings my body pain, tension, or stress.

I pledge to be honest with myself about my body and it’s needs and desires. I will not hide behind lies that I am not good enough, tall enough, attractive enough, thin enough, or just enough.

I pledge to teach others to love their bodies as well, by modeling a positive attitude toward my body and showing others that acceptance is possible. I will inspire in others what I wished someone inspired in me.

~ Author of the Pledge is Unknown ~

Sunday, May 12, 2013


More perfect than the Sun
More beautiful than a Rose
The love I have for you, only God could know.
For it is he and I that chose you to be my Mother
All those years ago.

You may not believe it
But I swear nothing could be more true
That of all the other women created to have children
No one was more perfect for the task than you.

You were the one I’d need in this life
To stand by my side and see me through
Because after all, anyone could be called a Mother
But to give of yourself unconditionally each day
Takes a selfless heart and the purest of souls
In a word, YOU!
I knew it when I first felt your touch
That I would never deserve a love so true
40 years later, I feel no different
You are still the one I cherish most and look up to

We have a special and unique bond
That no one could ever break
A love that has taken a life time to nurture
That no one could ever take.

You don’t always understand me
But you try so hard to
Always hiding the hurt and pain I cause you
Forever protecting your daughter like a suit of armour
Making it known to all living things
That you will destroy anyone, anything that will ever try to harm her

And  if I am given nothing else within this life
I am forever blessed
Because I was loved enough by a God
That he created a mother like you, just for me
A Mother who is without a doubt simply...THE BEST!

{ To all the Mother's out there:  Whether on earth or in heaven, we love you! }

~ Happy Mother's Day ~

Tuesday, May 7, 2013


In today’s society, mental wellness has become equally important as physical vitality.  In order for your body to be well; your mind must follow suit.  With our busy lifestyles, stress plays a significant role in our mental and physical well-being.  So, learning how to deal with it is paramount. 

Now that spring is upon us it’s a perfect time to start a new health regime.  Most people try this after ringing in the New Year but, it’s a difficult task to achieve.  Something about the days darkening at 4pm and the endless amount of snow/cold weather is enough to make your body shut down – let alone your mind.  This is why I believe that spring is the perfect time to take on this new challenge.  With the days getting longer and the weather getting brighter, our spirits naturally begin looking for new ways to get fit and embrace a healthier lifestyle. 

One of the key elements of getting fit is making sure that you always set yourself up for success.  There is no point beginning something that is doomed to fail, before you even begin.  So, take some time to sit down and really think about your day to day life.  Think about what small changes you can incorporate right away, to give you that momentum to continue building upon your new lifestyle.   The second key element you must remember is that this is in fact a “lifestyle” change.  So, be sure to implement changes that you can stick to every day.  Don’t simply make haste decisions because it will give you an immediate result.  We all know how those end up.

So, in honour of spring and our lives, I thought I would provide you all with some tips on how to “get started” on “getting fit”.   You must picture yourself as a 3-level component.  Mind, Body and Spirit.  Keeping in mind that what you do to one will alter and effect all three. 
Here are some really great tips that I've found extremely helpful to get you off to a great start.  They will certainly keep you motivated to stay on track:


 You are what you eat, in every way.  This timeless saying still rings true.  Take the time each day to write down everything you’re eating.  Really think about what you’re putting into your body on a daily basis.  Then at the end of each day, rate how you fell over all.  If you’re truthful, you may find that there could definitely be some room for improvement.  Your food choices should not only stimulate your taste buds, but your mind and body as well.  Food can set the pace for many things.  How you feel, what your mood is like and the level of energy you have.  You must begin looking at food as something that not only affects your body, but your spirit and mind as well.


Choose an activity that stimulates you in every way.  Allow yourself to experience something that will engage you physically, mentally and spiritually.  Make sure that it’s fun, exciting and somewhat of a challenge.  This will keep you motivated so that you do it continuously without boredom.  Take Salsa lessons.  Sign up for some cooking or Yoga classes.  Join a sporting team or become a meditation student.  Those are some examples, just to name a few. 


It is always important to set up a plan of action, whenever you commit to taking on a new project. Many of us talk about it but only few of us schedule a strategy to execute and follow.  So get into the habit of mapping out your action plan.  Create your own mission statement and then write out (step by step) how you plan to achieve that goal.  Make sure your plan illustrates something you can do each day and then begin working (day by day) to achieve what you’ve committed to do. 


If your goals aren’t attainable you will soon lose all motivation and enjoyment in trying to achieve them.  It’s important that you not take on too much but, equally important to keep yourself challenged enough.  Too much of either thing can leave you tired, bored and stressed out.  Remember, we are trying to elevate stress not promote more of it in our bodies. 


There is an abundance of information out there on health, fitness and mental/spiritual well-being.  Take the opportunity to learn and adopt some key points that will serve you in this journey.   It could be a new recipe, or learning the benefits of certain food and vitamins over others.  Perhaps you will discover a new running class being offered that you always wanted to try and now you can, because the group runs in your area.  Most importantly, you can share some of your “new found knowledge” with your friends and loved ones too.  Who knows, you may be the inspiration that sparks another’s need for change in their lives.  


Whether it’s a family member, a friend, a co-worker, a Therapist or a community support group; we all need help with staying on track.  As I mentioned earlier, your path must be seen as a 3-level component.   When your spirit is positive it allows your mind to think clearly, vividly.  With this intact, both components will allow your body to be more at ease – which in turn help fight off illness and disease.  Everything you do affects everything else.  Once you truly grasp that concept all will become clear.


Every plan is full of good intentions but, you should always begin by consulting your physician before beginning a health/lifestyle regime.  So make sure that you visit and discuss your health with them to rule out any serious conditions, injuries or limitations.  You may have the best of intentions but if you don’t know what’s going on inside of you too much of a good thing can have a negative impact. 

It’s a new season, so why not discover a new you.  Whatever your journey; may it be fruitful in every way.  Always remember that nothing tastes, looks or could ever be as good as healthy feels – so you owe it to yourself to be the most vibrant you you can be. 

Wishing you all a very long, healthy, happy and passionate life.  You deserve nothing less. 



Sunday, April 21, 2013


Today, I had the opportunity to read some amazing poetry.  Not just any kind of poetry, but love poetry.  No matter how I'm feeling I always revert back to what I truly believe.  That is, that old fashioned love is what I truly admire, crave and look forward to.

I began reading poems and love letters, dating back to Shakespearean times.  Those were my most favourite of all.  Then came poetry from the greats like:  E.E. Cummings, W. B. Yeats and many more. 

I think in today's world people have lost that old fashioned kind of loving feeling.  Everyone seems so quick to rush into things or placate sex - claiming it to be love.  What happened to Old Fashioned Love??? The kind that you see in old black and white films.  Nowadays, it's all a game.  A test of wills and one bed hopping experience after another.  It makes me sad.  Sad because I'm afraid to that there may be no one left out there who believes what I believe in, when it comes to love.

I realize now that becoming a Writer was inevitable for me.  I finally understood why my truest loves have been (and will always be) music and writing.  It's because words/lyrics and music are all beautifully intertwined.  It's like incredibly sorcery - almost bewitching.  I love words because I love, love.  I write a certain way (poetically) because I believe that it's the truest form of expressing that love-romantically. 

I think I'm ready to really begin writing again.  It had left me for a little while, but being in pain can sometimes crush your creative spirit.  Yet, after falling upon all these incredible pieces of writing today, something was restored within me. 

I thought I'd share some pieces with you:

I carry your heart with me
I carry it in my heart
I am never without it
anywhere I go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling
I fear no fate
for you are my fate, my sweet
I want no world
for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart
I carry it in my heart

~ E.E. Cummings ~

Had I the heaven's embroidered cloths,
Inwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

~ W. B. Yeats, The Cloths of Heaven~

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

~ XVII - Pablo Neruda ~

If you were coming in the fall,
I'd brush the summer by
With half a smile and half a spurn,
As housewives do a fly.
If I could see you in a year,
I'd wind the months in balls,
And put them each in separate drawers,
Until their time befalls.
If only centuries delayed,
I'd count them on my hand,
Subtracting till my fingers dropped
Into Van Diemens land.
If certain, when this life was out,
That yours and mine should be,
I'd toss it yonder like a rind,
And taste eternity.
But now, all ignorant of the length
Of time's uncertain wing,
It goads me, like the goblin bee,
That will not state its sting.

~ Emily Dickinson~

Saturday, April 6, 2013


A love note once written by a boy to a girl ....
"I'm going nuts, not knowing if you're ok.
   You are in my thoughts, every day.
    I wish I could take all your pain away
    Make you feel like none of this exists.
    Wipe it all away, with just one kiss
     Look into your eyes and take away your fear
     Whisper sweet sounds, into your ear.
      With just one word, make you feel safe and sound
      Without any tears.
       The sound of your voice, I want to hear
When I close my eyes, and wish you were here....with me.
I hope this puts you in a happy place
Cause all I want to see, is a smile upon your face."

Friday, March 29, 2013


It astounds me just how many hours a day I think about my life and who I am suppose to be within it. 
I’ve always been the kind of individual who had to find “meaning” in everything.  What I do, everything I am and all I feel must have some underlying purpose; just waiting to be discovered.    I believe that is why I love words so much.  They express what on most occasions I cannot say. 

I came across an incredible quote today, written by Timothy Leary.  The piece was called:  “Find the Others” It goes without saying that if I’m writing about it, it spoke directly to me.  It moved me in an indescribable way. 
It spoke about admitting to yourself (once and for all) that you may not be like everybody else and how incredibly “okay” it all was.  To own and accept who you are – even during the worst of times.  Because let’s face it, it’s always easier to love and accept yourself, when you are in a good place.  Yet, how difficult is it to “love and accept yourself” when you aren’t?  Probably one of life’s toughest challenges hands down! 

So it made me think. 
Could the problem be that all my life I’ve been trying so desperately to be “just like everybody else”?  I mean I’d like to think the opposite, really.  That most of my life I’ve struggled and fought so hard to find/keep my own identity.  Yet, could it very well be that all along, all I ever craved was to be “accepted”?

So perhaps all this time I’ve been going against the grain – against my own element.  Almost like trying to put a circular block into a triangular hole – it just won’t fit!  Maybe that’s it.  I’ve been trying to lead a life that others thought I should, rather than discovering who I really am and living a life JUST...FOR...ME.

Maybe that’s why everything has always felt so wrong.  Why the situations I find/put myself in don’t fit/match the basic fundamentals of who I am as a person.  Perhaps that is why some of us are unhappy because we keep trying to fight who we are.
Thomas’s piece ends on a high note, saying that there are more of us out there.  That those of us who are NOT like everybody else should strive to find each other.  Everyone we meet (or who comes into our lives) is for a given purpose.  That nothing in life is merely by coincidence and that it’s most true about people who share that life with us.

By finding the others of like mind, spirit and soul, you can finally see that your flaws are perfect – especially to someone who loves you or shares your meaning for life – namely yourself!  Ultimately, finding yourself would be the best treasure of all.
Perhaps it’s time to let go and concentrate on who I am, rather than trying to be like everyone else.  That maybe it’s time to truly put focus on loving ourselves, instead of trying so hard to be someone that another could/would love. Because knowing that anyone worth loving loves you for who you truly are anyway –simply because they know your worth.

 Perhaps it is indeed time to find the others..


Tuesday, March 12, 2013


With spring just around the corner, the world around us begins to change. We always get a certain lift or feeling come over us; knowing that longer, warmer days are one their way. It’s amazing what a little bit of sunshine can do to the human psyche.

To many of us, the coming of spring symbolizes things such as: Life, rebirth and growth. It’s a time when flowers bloom, butterflies begin to flutter and even bees return to buzz around their favourite plants.

It gives you the sense that a new beginning, surrounding are lives, is possible and we start to feel happy and cheerful. The days of driving to and from work in complete darkness are over and the chance to become one with nature has returned. Even the very word “spring” can light up someone’s face in seconds; especially when they’ve just finished a dark, cold and miserable winter.

Because of all that spring symbolizes, there are many habits/rituals that individuals correlate with this time of year. Since the season has a lot to do with new beginnings, many people find themselves cleaning out their closets – riding themselves of old clothes and lightening their loads. It almost takes on a psychological meaning in some way. The lighter your load, the happier you will be.

Another habit that people incorporate into spring is gardens. Whether it’s a flower or vegetable garden, folks cannot wait to get their hands dirty and begin making their surroundings look beautiful again. Making their homes look alive and new. While some plant, others paint. After a long and dreary winter it might be nice to give your home a fresh new look with a fantastic new colour scheme. You’d be surprised what a coat of paint can do for your walls – and your spirit!

No matter how many different things people do to welcome spring in their midst, one particular habit always takes rank over the others. That’s, getting your body ready for summer. Spring is a perfect time to begin that new diet or exercise regime; knowing full well that “beach body” weather is just around the corner. Spring can make you painfully aware that you may have had one too many turtle chocolate bon bons over Christmas and what’s worse; no bulky sweater is going to save or hide you for much longer. Finding a workout buddy is probably easiest to find around this time of year because there are so many of us out there of like mind.

So, while technically the “new year” is traditionally marked by the clock striking 12 on December 31st, it’s really the beginning of a new season that can truly symbolize change. I believe that spring is that season - A time for change and beauty that no other realm of time can possibly touch or live up to.

 A toast to the upcoming season.  May it be the beginning of all things wonderful for us all!

Tuesday, February 19, 2013


MuchMusic will soon be hosting their 2013 VJ Search. Sponsored by Garnier’s FRUCTIS – Fruit Sensation, all entries must be submitted by March 10th. This search begins with a “Reality-based Show” competition, which will be premiering on April 1st.

This year, LIFE AFX is very proud to be assisting one of the VJ contestant hopefuls, in fulfilling her dream of becoming MuchMusic’s 2013 VJ Search finalist.

Her name is: AMANDA CORDZ, a 24-year old Toronto cat, who has lived in our glorious city, all of her life. Recognize her? Well, if you don’t yet, you soon will!

Not only is she the newest Artist to be represented by LIFE AFX, but more importantly she is the future MuchMusic VJ Host of 2013. Or, at least she will be if we have anything to say about it!

Before graduating from York University as a Theatre Major, Amanda worked as a sporting event host for all varsity sports. . “A cheerleader with a microphone”, is how Amanda described it.

She is a vicarious, spicy lady with an incredible energy and zest for life. Someone we think would (without a doubt) be the perfect blend of fun, excitement and uniqueness that this show has ever seen. An element that has certainly been missing on the network for some time.

We caught up with Amanda to ask her a few questions about herself and what this opportunity would mean to her. We also thought her fans should know what we could look forward to if she was the next MuchMusic VJ host. Here’s what she had to say:

“ I am a 24-year old, Capricorn, born and raised in Toronto. Whether it’s going out dancing, catching art shows, theatre or roaming around for hours in bookstores. This city is profoundly electric and inspiring.

If I had to list a few things that I love most in life it would have to be music, dancing, movies, theatre, art, apples and ankle sock. Yes, I said ankle socks!

In music, my taste ranges from Andrea Bocelli to Bjork. From Lil’ Wayne and Drake, to Prince, City of Colour, Mumford and Sons to BeyoncĂ©. From Hunter Hayes to Azelia Banks. Oh, and I cannot forget to mention my deep and sincere love for musical theatre. You will always find me singing in the rain. Too many to mention or play favourites to but, I will say that I enjoy an eclectic variety.

I love to dance. I don’t mean to toot my own horn but “Toot Toot” This diva, can move!

I am a HUGE movie buff as well. I can quote any movie and have played many trivia games, engaging my fans and followers on Twitter, Face Book and You Tube. I really have a lot of fun putting things like that together for the fans. They absolutely love it!

I have had a great deal of experience entertaining people, both in my professional and personal life. From being an entertaining host on cruise ships to charity and auction events, I have always felt alive when performing- on ANY stage.

I love doing things to get/cause a reaction. My best friend and I dressed up once as two characters from the “Gangnam Style” video and went to her local grocery store. Just to see how people would react. The performance definitely drew a crowd and we ALL had an absolute blast.

As your new Much Music VJ, I will bring my positive attitude, my passion for music, and my dynamic personality to this station. With my willingness towards being open to new experiences and meeting new people- I want to reach out to much music viewers and restore a greater community involvement; all the while having fun with the fans. With my fearlessness towards taking risks and my impeccable interviewing skills, I will strive to get to know the artists who visit the studio- the real person- behind the music, beyond just being a musician. My passion for music and performance comes through in my daily life, it would be the ideal opportunity to put this passion to good use.

I truly believe that we were all born to do something in this world. We have a natural instinct and born talent and we should use it. I honestly think that this is my calling - to entertain and be seen, so that I can make people smile, laugh, and shake. I was (without a doubt) born to be the woman who will dominate the crowd by “just being me” on a stage. Most importantly, I’m real, authentic and human. So here I am, Toronto!”

Finally, I want to extend infinite thanks to all of you who have shown your support. I am honoured and grateful for all the love on my Facebook and Twitter fan pages. My heart is smiling in all corners. A special thank you and a big hug/kiss to Gia and the entire LIFE AFX crew for giving me a moment to introduce myself to all of you. Thank you for taking a chance on promoting and believing in this bold city girl. Your support makes me want to scream and shout and let it all out! THANK YOU, FOR EVERYTHING!!"

So if you didn’t know, now you know.

Calling ALL AMANDA CORDZ and LIFE AFX FANS / FOLLOWERS, to show your love and support for our girl.

Please visit (and most importantly LIKE / FOLLOW) her pages on Face Book and Twitter. The more “LIKES”, the more “FOLLOWINGS”, the closer we get our girl to the finish line AS A WINNER! So what do you say? Would you like AMANDA CORDZ to be YOUR new MuchMusic VJ Host? Would you like to see AMANDA CORDZ every day, live from your living rooms (on the regular)?

The answer is pretty simply here folks. YES!

So you know what to do:

@amandacordz – TWITTER

Amanda Cordz – FACE BOOK


Her destiny begins with all of you… her fans!

On behalf of myself and LIFE AFX, we wish Amanda infinite success with all her endeavours. We know she’ll do great!

Monday, February 11, 2013

A Mother's Valentine

A Mother approached me today to write a little birthday poem for her daughter, who was born on Valentine's Day.  So, I did and thought that I would share it with all of you today.

To all those who are celebrating this day, all the best!  A special "Happy Birthday to Alysia" for whom this poem was especially written:

To My Dearest Daughter:

I will never truly understand

The blessing that came to be

That God would create such a wonderful daughter

And sent her to be with me.

Your beauty, kindness and grace

Always leaves me in such “awe” of you.

I am so proud of the woman you’ve become,

You really are a Mom’s dream come true


Oh how I must be loved and cherished by God above

To know that he made you just for me.

With loving hands, so perfectly

The joy you bring me, everyone can see.


You are a shining light in my life

My heart and soul are yours forever.

Loved is something you will always be

And no matter what happens in this life,

Know that you will always have me.